The past two months have been amazing.Â But they’re over.Â Almost like a summer fling.Â Such is life.Â The season where all I think about is Jesus.Â Where I seem immune to sin.Â Where I feel holy.Â Over.
It’s been a little too long since my last post.Â Apologies.Â I have lots of thoughts which I’ll break into a few posts.Â Suffice it to say, my glow is a glimmer.Â My “bombfire” in my soul is a flickr.Â But it’s all good.Â Why?Â I’m learning more about myself and my Abba.Â Here are a couple off the cuff:
- Being filled with the Holy Spirit connotates a continual filling.Â A continual submission/connection.Â A continual denial of self.Â It can’t be a one-time deal and no maintenance.I haven’t read my Bible in probably three weeks.Â Is that me being too fundamental?Â Nope.Â But it disconnects me from the power.Â With no connection, there’s no power.Â Without power, I’m just a “normal” Chrisitan.
- Any recovery or change cannot be accompanied by neglect.Â I haven’t pursued Him much in the past few weeks.Â I’ve been too busy.Â Schoolwork.Â Other people’s needs.Â Dulls the senses.Â Dulls my spirit.
- It’s not all Jesus.Â He is the Source.
I’m not as discouraged and/or frustrated as I was a few days ago.Â I think it’s funny that sometimes we get surprised with our own frailty.Â Surprised we sin.Â Surprised we want to sin.Â Surprised we act like….well….sinnners.Â I don’t want my walk with Jesus to be bipolar.
What I’m learning about this season is that there is power.Â I’ve experienced it.Â I’m also learning that the Holy Spirit reaches in, reaches out, pursues us, and fills us.Â What He’s teaching me today is that my response to His gift, His love, His power is almost as important.Â I’m okay because I understand that this is the process of becoming holy.Â Rinse, wash, repeat.Â We get that.Â The same for our journey with Jesus.
I’ve got more thoughts.Â But I don’t have time to write them now.Â That’s systemic of this post.Â I know how Satan goes after me and my family.Â Busyness.Â He’s winning right now.Â But the battle isn’t over yet.